They say donkey doesn’t kick the same stone twice, which maybe be true but then he just kicks another stone. Granted in life we all make mistakes, after all we are human. But when you keep making the same mistakes over and over, that’s when you got to start saying to yourself how stupid are you. Even the smallest of animals have learnt when to change their ways or habits.
So now you asking why am I bring up this topic for my blog…
Apart from how the world seems to make the same mistakes over and over, when it comes to who to trust, how to deal with situations. But for me things are a bit more personal and plaguing my mind for some time now.
Mmm so where to start. Guess education is one of my more costly mistake. Granted many of use have made this mistake and its something we cannot really foresee. But If I had known back then what I know no I probably would not have gone in to graphic design as a career choice. Would have saved me a lot of money and possible a career that I could have grown with, but now im stuck with what im doing now and as much as I love the people I work with I can not help wish for a position where be more respectable and upgrading. But with that mistake I have grown to accept so this is probably one that really has not impacted me as much.
Mistake number two and this is one that I’m making time and time again. And this one is all on me, I’m the one that has control over this. What mistake is that, well bowling ofcourse. I’ve been bowling for 26 years now and I pretty good at it, I’ve worked my way up to the point that I can at time keep up with the best of them. But like most bowlers that perfect game has eluded me time and time again. Every time I seem to have that chance to bowl that perfect game and seem to mess up with my delivery, even though I am able to do the same routine over and over, when it comes to that moment I forget to do something, if its lifting correctly, keeping the same speed etc. It’s funny but my mother has always joked with me I should engrave my steps in to the ball so that when im there on the approach I can go over what needs to be done. But that’s bowling and why its so fun, and frustrating at the same time. So I believe one day i’ll make that perfect game and be in that elite group of people.
So now on to my painful mistake and that one were ill just never learn. Twice I have been involved with someone I dearly wanted to be with and yet with fault of my own and ended things, not cause of their faults but because of mine. and only later down the line after all is said and done do I realize how stupid ive been, if I had communicated better and not been so hast I’d be happy right now. Was it because I was scared where things were going, or was it that I didn’t know how to handle things.
Who knows maybe ill get that chance to be truly happy with someone, if that moment ever arrives. Even though all is said and done I can not help maybe think is my life was a mistake, the signs were there from being dropped on my head as a baby to two brain ops, those three alone should have killed me, to the way my life is now with one hardship after another. Granted there are others that have it harder but we lead our own life’s and we make our choices so we are to blame.
God I hate this time of year….