So what I mentioned in my previous post, well forget that. But as they say when one door closes another opens. And maybe just maybe it might happen for me.
A few years ago I dated a sweet girl for a few months and with stupidity on my part and fear I ended things. No fault of hers but more it’s that famous saying it’s not you its me. No jokes.
Anyhow we stayed friends for a while and after a year or so I ashamed to say lost touch. Anyhow the other morning 3 years later I received a text from her and we started chatting. Now I know she still with the same guy she started dating after me and that been going on for three years now.
So we chatted morning to night and basically all the good times came back and we both seem to have new founded feelings for each other.
Now you might wonder where this might lead now. I found out that she isn’t living with him which I found a little strange that after three years that aren’t living together so it can’t be going all that well. So maybe just maybe we will get back together again. And truth be told I hope we do. She is sweet and I have been happier since we chatted.
So maybe second time around might be something to hope for and who knows maybe out relationship will be stronger.
So something odd is developing. I’m not ashamed to say but I’ve been single for a few years now. Now partly cause I just could not find any one interested enough in me.
Well that’s not true. Had a few bites but all of which I’ve not been interested in myself. Come now I not that desperate that I’ll date who ever come my way. But it was safe to say that all the woman were not what I was looking for. Seriously though we know physical appearance plays a key role. And they may be beautiful to someone but just not me.
Now what’s developing on my end is I am currently chatting with a girl and she is beautiful. Great body, cute face. Lovely voice. The works. But here the kink in the own thing. She’s currently in Hong Kong working and will be coming to Toronto next month on a working visa and possibly staying for good.
So what do I make of this. Naturally I’d be keeping my guard up but I just surprised a woman like her is interested in me. Maybe it’s nothing or then maybe it’s something worse. But either way I keeping thinking of that saying if things are too good to be true they usually are…
Day after day I go out and im sure you have noticed it too. Multiple couple of mixed race. Chinese with black. White with black. Middle eastern with white. Sure you see same race couples but you see more and more every day.
I got began to think about this even I have look at other races for possible dates and have to say that ive see a few asian woman attractive. As im sure you aware that each race is let relactent to be picky or set fixed with what they want. Hell even their character is different from race to rave.
So like I said ive been thinking of this and I think ive came up wih a theory. I maybe way off but I dare you to show me evidence that im wrong.
My theory is as folllows. The reason why there are mixed races is simple the same race either dont want them any more as they too picky in what they are looking for. Or that the same race can not deal with their ego or character. Those in the end they decided to attach them selves to another race who are more relactent to put up with their crap.
How you say I come to this conclusion. Simple. Ill take myslef for example. Past 4 years ive been single. Been on multiple dating sights for my own reason that im not going to get in to. Ive tried to make contact to a number of woman. And trust me I was exactly picky on who I wrote too. Yet nothing. Now I see my self as an average looking guy. Hell ive seen worse than me and still have a woman locked arm to arm. I easy going and all around good guy whose respectful and caring. Yet not one woman would give me the time of day. I have even tried other races but seems to have failed on that front as well.
Now there could be some truth to my theory or maybe not. Im just going by what I see.
We have all heard it on the news, of a disgruntled worker going to his previous workplace and going on a shooting spree. Now the news always makes the shooter out as the bad guy, but you never hear his side of the story, why he took matters in his own hands, the reasoning behind it. Now I don’t agree with this measure but I can well understand it and I have no doubt in some cases with was warranted.
How i come to this frame of mind is easy, and allow me to bring two examples to the table and judge me if you will but I’m sure you may not agree but then who cares.
Someone I know who has been out of work for a year and half. The person she is living with pulled up the slack and paid everything with his pay cheque. He put his whole life on hold and after paying the bills, mortgage he had nothing for himself, in fact he was short $40. So that meant that dating was out of the question and no little extras like the occasional burger or treats. But finally luck falls upon her and she lands a full time position. two weeks go by and everything seems to be going well and life is back to normal. He even feels relief that now he can pay off the debt.
Over the public holiday she hurts her back to a point that at night he can hear her crying in pain with every movement. Tuesday comes and she slowing and painfully get ready for work, she’s half way in the parking lot on her way to work when she collapses in pain. She can barely walk and needs to be carried upstairs. He calls a ambulance as the pain as unbearable and the EMS had to lift her on to a stretcher. She contacts the office and since her boss was not in that day she spoke to the hr and they said not to worry and get better soon. Wednesday comes along and still in pain as a nerve has worked it way between two disks, she contacts her boss that she will not be able to make it in. At that point her boss tells her that she’s fired… Not like she planed this or if matters were any different she would have made it. Now she is unemployed again. Now I ask you this, is this fair. Once again Corporations get away with the unjustified action as suing is out of the question as she can not afford a lawyer and well the company will just states that it wasn’t a good fit and she was still in her probation timeframe.
A friend of mine had his performance review the other day and it was nothing but high mark across the board. Then his boss tell him that there is a raise coming to him…. wait for it. A whole 1%. That’s basically after taxes an extra $20. Now you probably saying well it’s something, but keep this in mind. This is the first raise he has gotten in 5 years, all the other years he was told not in the budget, not bonus either. But here is the kicker of it. the company can afford to acquire new business by buying them out. Not only that but they recently do a company office makeover that cost them well over $1million. Not to mention a few other expenses that are a waste. Here is a guy that barely takes sick days, it would be rare if he took one or two days off. Occasionally takes a day off here and there and always on time for work, polite and get the job done. Not to mention was twice awarded the employee of the month. So again 1%. that doesn’t even cover the economy inflation rate.
So I can well understand why people get so upset, not my examples are minor I’m sure compared to others, but just comes to show how inconsiderate corporations can be and only care about themselves after all they the ones that’s making 6 figures and driving around in $80 000+ cars.
You know as human beings we do stupid things and for someof us we do it on a regular basisis.
Be it ending a relationship because of something small that later on we regret our actions and wish that we could havea do over. Or buying something that you can afford but later realise exactly how much you will not use it and so it just sits there wasting away when you could have used that money on a vacation or something that you actually will have some use for.
But apart from that we, well some of us do soemthing even more stupipd that in turn hurts us more than others. I’m not talking about physically hurting someone with out actions but more hurting yourself. I’m not proud of it but when I get angry I relieve that angry by hitting a wall. Now a few years back I did this and broke my hand. again not proud of it but at least I’m hurting myself rather than causing bodyly harm to someone else. Having said that since then I’ve controled myself by means of meditaion and control. But we all human and have a slip from time to time. Like now where insteadcof hitting a wall I ended up kickign a wall and now I’m paying for it as my heal of my foot is in hurting. Not broken thankfully but sore enough that I’m been limping for the past few days. again not proud of it and maybe this will teach me to think not only about others but also about myself and that next time rethink my actions.
So if you take anything away from my blog, think about what you doing before you execute your action.
“If only” two words that are so powerful to the mind that it can make you angry, disappointed and sad in at once. I’m sure you have came to a point in your life where you said, “if only I had taken that job” or “If only I had enough money.” and my personnel favorite “If only I had asked her”. Now if we did what our gut was telling us or our better judgment then things would be so bad but we all have a that little voice in our heads that makes us rethink things and as such we think twice about certain things that later we regret.
A situation that has happened to me all too often. Only recently has there two words been plaguing me. If only I had asked her and maybe we would be together, but now I’ve lost that chance and as such she is with someone else and I stuck with having to fantasize how we would be together.
But maybe things will turn out all right later in life after all we all bound to meet someone right?
We have all that saying that when things are too good to be true they generally are. Yet time and time again we fall for the same thing over and over. Given it’s our natural instinct to not give up and keep trying when exactly when is it when enough is enough. How many time do we need to get hurt or disappointed to realize that facing the fact is the best on only option available to us.
Two examples and just to happen to me. I go week after week bowling, having been doing this for quite some time and in the past few months my team has been out performing themselves, myself included. As they say we were in a league of our own, week after week we were racking in the points, to a point that we are currently in first place. But only last week we fell apart. Ended up losing majority of the points and probably drop or positions few. Ok given we only half way through the season and we could make up the positions, but the fact is that things were going too right. And knowing my track record it should not have come to a surprise that we would fail.
and example of an instance that I should have know better. Matter of fact it this happened only yesterday. I’ve been single to a number of years, given a few of those years was by chose. But just so happened that I put my self out there again and a few weeks ago I started chatting with this woman online. I have an idea on what she looked like and had the feeling that we could be a good fit. So we met up, and we have heard people say that photos don’t do you justice. Well in this case is was true. She was far more beautiful in person. She pretty much had all the qualities that I was looking for. Average height, good body, long blonde hair and a beautiful face to match. for the most part of the date we had a good time. We laughed and shared stories of ourselves and generally got a feel we each other. But and here it comes we all have our deal breakers and it just so happens to broke 2 of them. To say I’m disappointed is a understatement. But thinking back I shouldn’t have been surprised as considering who I have dated before.
So keep in mind that what ever you doing, and it seems to be going too well or something is too right. don’t be surprised that it probably too good to be true.