We have all heard it on the news, of a disgruntled worker going to his previous workplace and going on a shooting spree. Now the news always makes the shooter out as the bad guy, but you never hear his side of the story, why he took matters in his own hands, the reasoning behind it. Now I don’t agree with this measure but I can well understand it and I have no doubt in some cases with was warranted.
How i come to this frame of mind is easy, and allow me to bring two examples to the table and judge me if you will but I’m sure you may not agree but then who cares.
Someone I know who has been out of work for a year and half. The person she is living with pulled up the slack and paid everything with his pay cheque. He put his whole life on hold and after paying the bills, mortgage he had nothing for himself, in fact he was short $40. So that meant that dating was out of the question and no little extras like the occasional burger or treats. But finally luck falls upon her and she lands a full time position. two weeks go by and everything seems to be going well and life is back to normal. He even feels relief that now he can pay off the debt.
Over the public holiday she hurts her back to a point that at night he can hear her crying in pain with every movement. Tuesday comes and she slowing and painfully get ready for work, she’s half way in the parking lot on her way to work when she collapses in pain. She can barely walk and needs to be carried upstairs. He calls a ambulance as the pain as unbearable and the EMS had to lift her on to a stretcher. She contacts the office and since her boss was not in that day she spoke to the hr and they said not to worry and get better soon. Wednesday comes along and still in pain as a nerve has worked it way between two disks, she contacts her boss that she will not be able to make it in. At that point her boss tells her that she’s fired… Not like she planed this or if matters were any different she would have made it. Now she is unemployed again. Now I ask you this, is this fair. Once again Corporations get away with the unjustified action as suing is out of the question as she can not afford a lawyer and well the company will just states that it wasn’t a good fit and she was still in her probation timeframe.
A friend of mine had his performance review the other day and it was nothing but high mark across the board. Then his boss tell him that there is a raise coming to him…. wait for it. A whole 1%. That’s basically after taxes an extra $20. Now you probably saying well it’s something, but keep this in mind. This is the first raise he has gotten in 5 years, all the other years he was told not in the budget, not bonus either. But here is the kicker of it. the company can afford to acquire new business by buying them out. Not only that but they recently do a company office makeover that cost them well over $1million. Not to mention a few other expenses that are a waste. Here is a guy that barely takes sick days, it would be rare if he took one or two days off. Occasionally takes a day off here and there and always on time for work, polite and get the job done. Not to mention was twice awarded the employee of the month. So again 1%. that doesn’t even cover the economy inflation rate.
So I can well understand why people get so upset, not my examples are minor I’m sure compared to others, but just comes to show how inconsiderate corporations can be and only care about themselves after all they the ones that’s making 6 figures and driving around in $80 000+ cars.
You know as human beings we do stupid things and for someof us we do it on a regular basisis.
Be it ending a relationship because of something small that later on we regret our actions and wish that we could havea do over. Or buying something that you can afford but later realise exactly how much you will not use it and so it just sits there wasting away when you could have used that money on a vacation or something that you actually will have some use for.
But apart from that we, well some of us do soemthing even more stupipd that in turn hurts us more than others. I’m not talking about physically hurting someone with out actions but more hurting yourself. I’m not proud of it but when I get angry I relieve that angry by hitting a wall. Now a few years back I did this and broke my hand. again not proud of it but at least I’m hurting myself rather than causing bodyly harm to someone else. Having said that since then I’ve controled myself by means of meditaion and control. But we all human and have a slip from time to time. Like now where insteadcof hitting a wall I ended up kickign a wall and now I’m paying for it as my heal of my foot is in hurting. Not broken thankfully but sore enough that I’m been limping for the past few days. again not proud of it and maybe this will teach me to think not only about others but also about myself and that next time rethink my actions.
So if you take anything away from my blog, think about what you doing before you execute your action.
“If only” two words that are so powerful to the mind that it can make you angry, disappointed and sad in at once. I’m sure you have came to a point in your life where you said, “if only I had taken that job” or “If only I had enough money.” and my personnel favorite “If only I had asked her”. Now if we did what our gut was telling us or our better judgment then things would be so bad but we all have a that little voice in our heads that makes us rethink things and as such we think twice about certain things that later we regret.
A situation that has happened to me all too often. Only recently has there two words been plaguing me. If only I had asked her and maybe we would be together, but now I’ve lost that chance and as such she is with someone else and I stuck with having to fantasize how we would be together.
But maybe things will turn out all right later in life after all we all bound to meet someone right?
We have all that saying that when things are too good to be true they generally are. Yet time and time again we fall for the same thing over and over. Given it’s our natural instinct to not give up and keep trying when exactly when is it when enough is enough. How many time do we need to get hurt or disappointed to realize that facing the fact is the best on only option available to us.
Two examples and just to happen to me. I go week after week bowling, having been doing this for quite some time and in the past few months my team has been out performing themselves, myself included. As they say we were in a league of our own, week after week we were racking in the points, to a point that we are currently in first place. But only last week we fell apart. Ended up losing majority of the points and probably drop or positions few. Ok given we only half way through the season and we could make up the positions, but the fact is that things were going too right. And knowing my track record it should not have come to a surprise that we would fail.
and example of an instance that I should have know better. Matter of fact it this happened only yesterday. I’ve been single to a number of years, given a few of those years was by chose. But just so happened that I put my self out there again and a few weeks ago I started chatting with this woman online. I have an idea on what she looked like and had the feeling that we could be a good fit. So we met up, and we have heard people say that photos don’t do you justice. Well in this case is was true. She was far more beautiful in person. She pretty much had all the qualities that I was looking for. Average height, good body, long blonde hair and a beautiful face to match. for the most part of the date we had a good time. We laughed and shared stories of ourselves and generally got a feel we each other. But and here it comes we all have our deal breakers and it just so happens to broke 2 of them. To say I’m disappointed is a understatement. But thinking back I shouldn’t have been surprised as considering who I have dated before.
So keep in mind that what ever you doing, and it seems to be going too well or something is too right. don’t be surprised that it probably too good to be true.
We have heard this from time to time people asking each other if there’s life after death or if we lived before. I have wondered that myself, and I have to believe we must have had past lives. I say show me proof that there isn’t life after death.
REason for bring this up in blog is that everyday I think of what I must have done in my past life to deserve the loneliness and misery that I’m going through right now. Ever since I was young I’ve always had a fascination with San Francisco or Seattle, I’ve never been there but some part of me feels thats I have been there. I’m not born American but I feel in my heart that I am. I’m more concerned with American news than that of where I am now. Plus I get very offended when I hear people around me bad mouth Americans. So that makes me think that just maybe in a past life I have lived there. Just maybe I did something horribly wrong, that I hurt someone so bad that I possibly took my own life or something that made me come in to this life and now paying the price with having to miserable, with unable to find love or be loved. So do I believe in past life, yes I do and I only hope that when I die, my next life with be better and that I paid my dues that that what ever I do in my next life will be better and more worth while.
In my previous blog I mentioned about the reasoning behind my angre. But I feel I should also mention that there is also one more thing that needs mentioning.
For as long as I can remember everyday I’m doing the same routine. Not just on week days wit me going to work, coming home, working on my computer and then finally sleep. Weekends on pretty much the same except for work. I stay at home, go bowling and then return home to work on my computer and then sleep.
I guess I get angry more at myself as it’s up to me to change my routine yet what is the point in changing when you have nothing to motivate you to change. I have no one to spend time with and well I think we can all agree that going out and doing things on your own is not exactly fun. How can you have fun with you don’t have someone to enjoy it with. No surprise that no woman would want to be with me. Hell I dont even know how to have fun any more.
I’ve asked people and quite frankly being asking myself this question….Why are you so angry. Well there are a number of things really but here are the top three.
1. Unfairness at work….
I been working at this company for almost 7 years, in the beginning we received bonuses, increase in pay but year by year that changed. Haven’t had a bonus for since the second year I started, and a raise well, haven’t had one in 5 years. In the beginning management blamed the recession, but it’s been 5 years now and not only has the company since then bought smaller companies join the firm but has gone through a $1million office renovation. And on top of that management informs us quarterly of how well the company is doing, yet the employees don’t get rewarded, management does as recently I saw our head of management driving around in a $500 000+ Rolls Royce and not yet any RR, a car where there’s on 3 in Canada. Would change companies or positions but my current situation doesn’t really allow me to make any unnecessary moves or risks.
2. Corporate bulling…
I’ve been a Loyal customer with Rogers, Have my cell phone with them, my cable and internet. I know for a fact that 80% of people prefer Rogers and yet they continue to raise prices and belittle us, well I guess someone has to pay for all the building and sporting arena’s that they purchase over the years or if I didn’t know better to help fund less legit organizations. Recently I’ve been having some technical issues, in the past 2 weeks I’ve have 4 technicians coming around and they can not seem to get the job done and fix the problem, well maybe if they hired people that spoke English it might have helped but no that not the case. Then when you call tech support they put all the blame away from them and make it seem the problem is on your side. Makes you wonder what exactly am I paying them for,
3. Residential management issues
Then to top of my issues, there where I live. I have been living in my condo for a a number of years but only recently have I bought the place as to have a be of security for the future. But I’ve been paying month after month and not only do I not see things getting better but they in fact are getting worse. On the weekends we have no hot water so I can shower or even do the dishes. Management blames that they working on fixing the pipes as the building is old, yet 2 other building in the area which are exactly like our and built around the same time don’t seem to be having these issues. on top of that earlier this year there was a major ice freeze and while most got their power and heat back, our building was for 3 weeks no heat, no water and electricity. All this during the coldest part of the year and when we ask management if we going to get compensated, they reply that they can not afford this, yet we paid for a month where there was no service. There’s a whole more to this story but I really do not wish to think about it any more.
I very well can understand why people are protesting example the Occupy movement and I can very well understand why people go on a shooting rampage at work. Hell I can even see why people the their own life. With all the government corruption and corporate unfairness, no one in this world give a danm. Seems you all out for themselves and the hell with everyone else.